Late Night Rambles

It's getting late. Now that I have school, I'm not used to being up so late. I haven't blogged in a while, so I thought I would console my lonely blog with some words.

So school is hitting "mid-sem" and it's a very chaotic time for me. I'm trying to study and trying to keep interest, but the only class I really care for now is Astronomy, but even then I am constantly texting Jaci and battling sleep demons so I don't pass out in class. That class is so late in the day that I feel myself often drifting off when I know I'm supposed to be listening.

I had a very long facebook session today. I commented everyone and posted pictures I've been meaning to put up. I'm really interested in photography, but I feel like the class just isn't right for me. The professor is (no offense) a bit of a douche. He makes me feel like I can take an absolute shit picture, but if I know how to work photoshop then it will be amazing. Photographers didn't always have that tool, and there are plenty of breathless pictures! Idk...just feels like technology is getting too far ahead that people get lazy and just depend on it.

I can relate to that. Instead of writing this all down in a journal, I use a blog where my typed WPM over shadow my slow hand written WPM. Oh well...this is life.

Speaking of life. I am confused. I am a very goal oriented and list loving person. I planned out what I want to do, where I want to go, and how I want to get there. The problem is there is so much I want to do, I feel like there's not enough time to do it! I want to travel, I want to learn, I want money, I want a boyfriend. Lol, but there's so many routes to take, so make things to consider, I feel like I need a whole huge wall to list all my thoughts. (I'm not a toddler anymore, so if my parents saw me scribbling...I would for sure get a beat down.)

Lists and goals aside, I am also a very big, HUGE, fan of spontaneity! I like being random, I like the unexpected (as long as it's something good), I also really like leaving it all up to fate, God, whatever else may be mightier than I. You know?

I don't know how to balance those two out and still be really happy. I feel like if I'm not listing, and not setting goals then I open myself up to anything. Although I don't mind diverting from the "path"...I don't want to wander off too far. Then I feel like if I don't allow myself the chance to do whatever, I will miss out?

Take it as it comes!? Maybe? Maybe I should just take it. XD